Almost but not yet the end..

Its nearer yet still so far.. 30 weeks along and I am HUGE! I kid you not.. Most people said that I don't look too big from behind but kalau tengok depan - depan, it looks as though I'm about to pop the baby out any time soon.. Can't imagine how big I'll be in 10 weeks time..

I can't wait to finally meet my little angel but at the same time I'm scared out of my mind! Been asking around about childbirth (actually I've been asking about it since we've ttc 5 years ago :P ) and read what I can find about it but still not knowing what to expect is kinda nerve wrecking. Getting different stories and experiences from different people is not much of a help too.. hahaha.. From what I can gather the pain is different for everyone (and every pregnancy!) Tidak semestinya kalau mo beranak air ketuban pecah, and not all will bleed before the actual labour.. Taking everything in, I try to besedia jak la untuk apa pun kemungkinan.. I guess you'll have to experience it by yourself baru la boleh tau kan? So, in this 30 weeks of pregnancy I've decided 2 things. First, I've decided to opt for natural delivery and praying hard it'll be possible. I'm just too much of a chicken to be put under a knife I guess.. hehe.. Tapi when the time comes and teda pilihan, tepaksa jugak apa boleh buat la kan.. Anything for the safety of my baby.. Alhamdulillah, so far baby is healthy and growing according to baby's appropriate size or slightly bigger (I think, will tell after check up tomorrow). I've got a feeling my baby is going to be a tall baby (ikut bapanya) and baby got the moves like Jagger I tell you.. Active betul berkickboxing dalam perut ni.. hehehe.. Tp ndak kisah la, bekuntau la baby dalam perut asalkan sihat dan sempurna semuanya.. Amin.. The second thing I've decided is to exclusively bf my baby.. I know this second one is quite challenging especially when I start working after maternity leave but I seriously hope that it'll be possible. My sister who just gave birth last August is determined on doing the same thing and so far, baby Khadijah is fully bf. Susah jugak dia cakap masa awal - awal tp they're getting the hang of things especially with the help of BIL's mother. A friend of mine Peejah who is also a working mother, yg bf her baby pun buat aku tambah semangat mo bf..

So I've been searching for possible baby names :) Loved a few but still undecided.. Something that starts with A or H.. Who knows looking for names for your unborn baby ni susah jugak.. Ada yang Hubbs suka but I dont and vice versa.. Sebelum ada baby bukan main banyak lagi list nama hahaha.. tp since lambat dapat rezeki all the names sudah kena amik oleh close families.. so back to the drawing board la jawapnya hahahaha.. hopefully we'll get something and agree on it soon :) Kalau ada suggestion pun amatlah dialu - alukan :D

On a totally different note, I just want to declare that I think <3 Henry Cavill <3 is oh so handsome and oh so sexy!! hahah.. Noticed him 1 first while watching the Tudors series.. Watched him again recently dalam the Immortals.. Aduihh.. cair I.. hahaha.. During the early months of my pregnancy I suddenly terjatuh cinta dengan Adam Lavine of Maroon 5.. For some reason baru aku perasan yg dia handsome kah kah kah.. ehh macam mana dari movie boleh pigi org handsome pulak ni? LOL.. ok back to movies, Breaking Dawn part 1 is coming soon!! Arghhhh.. Ndak sabar ni.. I'll be reunited with my beloved Edward soon.. Few more days left, ndak sabarrrrr.. :D

Wah.. hari ni panjang pulak my karangan.. Lama sdh ndak mengarang disebabkan malas hari ni at least hilang la sdh sawang - sawang di blog ni.. hihihihi.. Well, till then peeps.. Hope it'll not be until 2 more months la kan baru aku memblog balik :P Take care!! xoxo - @dr3h -