.:Cockaigne Of Mind:.

Is it time?

2012-01-10T08:33:00.002+08:00

Well.. looks like it.. Doakan semua selamat for me & baby ya..
Thanks..

"Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku.. Permudahkan la dan selamatkan la aku dan kandunganku..

Amin.. Ya rabbal alamin.."

2012

2012-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year 2012 to all of you.. Semoga tahun baru ini kita semua diberikan yang terbaik olehNya.. Amin.. :)

2011-12-31T19:37:00.000+08:00

Went to the see Dr F on the 29th.. Alhamdulillah semua pun ok.. I'm 71 kg now and berat baby is around 2.6kg.. (dari 71 kg tu rupanya 2.6kg jak baby.. beratnya aku kan? hahaha.. betrip la kunun baby yg berat) According to Dr F, baby is progressing well and the size is very good. She estimated baby will be around +/-3.6 kg when I deliver.. Macam besar pulak tu kan 3.6kg *gulp* Baby is already engaged now, just taking baby's own sweet time to make baby's first appearance :) Semakin dekat rasa semakin bedebar.. Kerja banyak lagi blum siap si opis tu.. Hand over pun blum buat.. Hopefully boleh siapkan semua by next 2 weeks.. so kalau terdeliver awal 2 weeks pun ok jgk.. Hubbs is getting worried.. Balik - balik asked me opt for C-sect instead of natural birth when he heard the size of the baby.. LOL.. Macam la dia yang mo beranak ba.. :P But I
I've set my mind to opt for natural birth kecualilah kalau memang teda pilihan but according to Dr F, so far so good and my chances of going for natural birth is quite high.. Sekarang ni tengah pack - pack barang to bring to the hospital.. Don't quite know what to pack.. rasa macam semua mo bawak.. Any ideas or tips?

2011-12-14T10:47:00.001+08:00

There are a million and one things for me to do right now.. Banyak kerja tapi teda mood mo buat kerja.. So I decided to some blog hopping.. Came accross my ex-schoolmate punya blog and read about her experience of giving birth. I cried a little reading her entry.. Even with her experience (dia ada 2 anak sdh) masi jugak dia nervous.. Rasa sangat nervous sekarang ni since I'm fast approaching my edd. Rasa sangat tidak sabar mau tinguk what my child will look like.. I've seen and craddle so many of my families and friends babies before.. This time around the baby will be mine.. :') Not someone elses, but mine..

Ya Allah, Ya Tuhanku.. Permudahkan la semuanya untuk hambamu ini.. Selamatkan dan berkatilah anak dalam kandunganku Ya Allah.. Berikanlah dia segala kesempurnaan.. Jadikan lah dia insan yang berguna.. Insan yang berjaya dunia dan akhirat.. Amin.. Ya robbal alamin..

2011-12-07T10:01:00.001+08:00

It’s been said and done
Every beautiful thought’s been already sung
I guess right now, here’s another one.
So your melody will play on and on with the best of ‘em
You are beautiful like a dream come alive, incredible.
A sinful, miracle, lyrical.
You saved my life again
And I want you to know, baby.

I, I love you like a love song baby (3x)
And I keep hitting re-pe-pe-pe-pe-pe-peat
I, I love you like a love song baby (3x)
And I keep hitting re-pe-pe-pe-pe-pe-peat

Constantly, boy, you played through my mind like a symphony
There’s no way to describe what you do to me.
You just do to me, what you do.
And it feels like I’ve been rescued
I’ve been set free
I am hypnotized by your destiny
You are magical, lyrical, beautiful, you are
And I want you to know, baby

I, I love you like a love song baby (3x)
And I keep hitting re-pe-pe-pe-pe-pe-peat
I, I love you like a love song baby (3x)
And I keep hitting re-pe-pe-pe-pe-pe-peat

No one compares, you stand alone
To every record I own
Music to my heart, that’s what you are
A song that goes on and on

I, I love you like a love song baby (3x)
And I keep hitting re-pe-pe-pe-pe-pe-peat
I, I love you like a love song baby (3x)
I love you like a love song

My song for the day to release some work stress.. Haih.. itu la bah menangguh2 kerja.. Kunun - kunun menunggu rasa ok2.. tp rasa ok2 tu ndak pandai datang dan ini la hasilnya.. Tambah stress.. huhu..

Stress

2011-12-06T16:33:00.001+08:00

Feel so stressed out about work.. Banyaknya kerja mo kasi siap tp ndak siap2 sebab memang ndak larat btul mo buat.. rasa mo menangis pun ada :(

Sheseido Make Me Beautiful Contest..

2011-12-06T11:09:00.001+08:00

Please be a doll and help vote for my Aunt Fauziah.. All you have to do is register and vote! As simple as that.. :D please go to this page and vote.. vote.. vote.. thank you all.. Jasamu di kenang.. :D

2011-12-06T09:47:00.001+08:00

Lately, almost always terasa macam tidak selesa. Duduk salah, baring salah huhu.. Don't quite know what to do :( For the past few days, the lower part of my abdoment feels weird. Rasa macam ada yg tertarik didalam tu.. rasa macam ada yg menekan pun ada jugak.. Susah la mo explain the feeling. Nothing I do relieves the uncomfortable and sometimes painful feeling. Sleep is almost imposibble.. Another thing I noticed, both my tapak tangan pandai cramp during the night. I thought I'm suppose to experience cramps on my legs but so far kaki ndak perna cramp.. Tapak tangan ni yang malar cramp and feels numb. I wonder if this is normal.. 7 more weeks to go.. Ya Allah.. Permudahkan la semuanya.. Aminn...

Someone Like You - Adele

2011-12-05T13:04:00.001+08:00

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"
Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

I just love this song..

2011-12-02T07:34:00.001+08:00

Well.. thats me.. :) 32 weeks pregnant @adr3h.. Told ya I'm huge.. hehehe.. So in the next 8 weeks dont be surprise if you happen to come across a LARGER me.. :D

( p/s: please excusekan bajuku yg berkedut2 macam ndak kena iron tu.. hahaha.. Seharian d ofis, itu la kejadiannya :P )

32 weeks - part 2

2011-12-01T15:51:00.001+08:00

haha.. sambung balik lagi post tadi pagi :D

Tomorrow kami ada dinner.. The theme is retro.. Sounds easy enough la kan mo cari baju? well.. not if you're as big as me.. hahaha.. lagi la betudung.. kalau ndak betudung memang banyak jak idea aku.. hahaha.. Awal - awal kerja dulu ada jugak dinner berkonsepkan yg sama tp time tu I kurus you.. hahaha boleh la macam2 fesyen.. skarang ni ntah apa la yang mo dipakai.. hrmm.. Kalau ikutkan hati, memang sangat malas mo pegi tapi memandangkan kawan2 memujuk tidak pandai berhenti maka ku gagahi la jugak untuk pigi esok.. Ntah apa la baju yang mo di pakai ni.. hahahaha.. Will post gambar later.. Tapi jangan tekejut yerr tgk I macam anak gajah.. hihihi..

32 weeks

2011-12-01T09:14:00.001+08:00

8 more weeks to go.. terasa berat betul sdh diri ini mo mendaki tangga 3 tingkat opis ni hari - hari.. huhu.. Kalaulah bukan sebab cuti sudah tinggal 3 hari, memang la aku aku cuti jak sepanjang bulan December ni.. Ini la akibatnya terlampau banyak cuti during early pregnancies.. hehe.. cuti dekat 30 hari jadi 3 hari sdh.. Tapi apa boleh buat la kan.. time tu memang pun rasa ndak larat.. Tidak pulak terfikir time sudah late pregnancies ni lain lg issuenya yg memerlukan (cehh perlu konon padahal.. hehehe..) cuti jgk.. Berat sdh mencapai 70kg last check up.. who knows how much I'll weigh in 8 weeks time kan? kalau 1 minggu 1 kg I'll be 78kg?!!! Itu kalau 1 kg 1 minggu.. kalau lebih?? Mati la.. hahaha.. macamana mo kasi turun tu pas bersalin? hahahah.. Anyways, baby is getting more active.. especially lepas jam 9 malam.. Time pegi klinik kesihatan hari tu, the nurse ajar cara mo kira pergerakan baby.. I'm suppose to take note on how often the baby moves in 12 hours time.. Masa mula 9 pagi sampai 9 malam.. Time mula2 tu bingung jugak macamana mo kira tapi after diexplain banyak kali baru la paham.. hehehe.. Kalau baby tidak bergerak minimum 10 kali dalam 12 jam tu, mesti mo cepat - cepat p hospital.. so far alhamdulillah.. ok jgk la pergerakan baby..

Lately ni mcm banyak pulak kerja aku.. haih.. ini semua sebab kerja bertangguh la ni.. Rasa mo muntah baca dokumen - dokumen QMS ISO yg mo diatur, proof read dll.. Masuk lg isms punya terms.. Haihh.. ntah la.. Immediate bos ok, memang memahami keadaan aku yg malas, lembab tidak bermaya untuk buat kerja time - time skrg ni .. tp bos yg atas dari immediate bos tu yg bikin takut.. Silap2 kena panggil mengadap P, atau pun ada la aku kena kasi masuk kaunseling sbb lambat kasi siap kerja.. huhuhu.. (kerja malas buat tp blogging ada masa pulak kan? hahaha) tapi seriously aku memang sangat teda mood mo buat kerja.. Membaca dokumen2 opis ni buat aku loya.. tp kalau baca buku cerita ok pulak.. hahha.. macamana tu? hmm..

Bah ok la.. suddenly aku rasa mcm mo muntah pulak.. will continue later if the mood strikes :) till then..

XOXO..
-70kg @dr3h-

2011-11-25T09:32:00.001+08:00

SEJARAH AWAL MUHARRAM/ MAAL HIJRAH

Hari Maal Hijrah atau Awal Muharram Ini adalah suatu hari yang penting
bagi umat Islam kerana ia menandakan dua peristiwa penting berlaku dalam
sejarah Islam. Pertama, memperingati penghijrahan Nabi Muhammad dari
Kota Mekkah ke Madinah pada tahun 622 masihi, dan kedua, ia merupakan
hari keagamaan di mana umat Islam mengadakan solat sunat di
masjid-masjid di seluruh negeri. Hari Maal Hijrah atau Awal Muharram
merupakan hari cuti umum di Malaysia dan merupakan permulaan tahun
hijrah bagi umat Islam.


KISAH HIJRAH
RASULULLAH (SAW) berusia 40 tahun apabila malaikat Jibrail (as) melawat
baginda ketika baginda sedang berkhalwat di Gua Hira. Jibrail
memberitahu Nabi Muhammad, baginda diangkat oleh Allah SWT sebagai rasul
untuk seluruh umat manusia. Pada peringkat awal, Rasulullah hanya
memperkenalkan Islam kepada sahabat terdekat dan ahli keluarga baginda.
Apabila baginda menerima perintah daripada Allah SWT supaya berdakwah
secara terbuka, baginda segera akur.

Baginda mengumpul beberapa pengikut di Makkah. Begitupun, kumpulan kecil
Muslim itu terdedah kepada maut berikutan ancaman daripada kaum kafir,
terutama bangsa Quraish, yang menyeksa mereka dengan teruk. Bagi
mengelakkan ancaman itu, Rasulullah SAW mengarahkan pengikutnya supaya
keluar dari Makkah secara senyap-senyap ke Madinah (ketika itu dikenali
sebagai Yathrib). Mereka meninggalkan keluarga yang kafir dan harta
benda dan disambut dengan mesra oleh penduduk Madinah. Satu hari pada
tahun 622M, iaitu kira-kira 12 tahun selepas berdakwah di Makkah,
Rasulullah SAW diberitahu kaum kafirun Makkah merancang membunuh baginda
untuk memusnahkan Islam.
Rasulullah menunggu perintah daripada Allah SWT. Malaikat Jibrail (as)
menemui baginda untuk memberitahunya Allah SWT mengarahkan baginda
supaya meninggalkan Madinah pada waktu malam. Berikutan itu, baginda
menemui sahabat baiknya Abu Bakar as-Siddiq (ra) dan memintanya supaya
menemani baginda dalam perjalanan itu.

Rasulullah juga memberitahu rancangan baginda kepada Ali bin Abi Talib
(ra). Baginda memberitahunya: "Saya akan berhijrah tetapi anda perlu
mengambil tempat saya di rumah." Ali (ra) tanpa banyak soal menuruti
permintaan Rasulullah (SAW) walaupun menyedari bahaya bakal dihadapinya.
Malam itu, sekumpulan Quraish mengepung rumah Rasulullah (SAW).
Mengintai melalui lubang di pintu, mereka nampak seseorang sedang tidur
di atas katil Rasulullah (SAW). Mereka begitu yakin Rasulullah tidak
dapat melepaskan diri dan mereka pasti dapat membunuh baginda. Apabila
fajar menjelang, mereka terperanjat melihat Ali (as) dan bukannya
Rasulullah (SAW) bangun dari katil itu. Mereka terpinga-pinga memikirkan
bila Rasulullah (SAW) keluar dari rumah itu. Rasulullah (SAW) dan Abu
Bakr (as) keluar dari Makkah pada malam itu juga. Tiada siapa mengetahui
arah tujuan mereka dan tiada siapa tahu tempat persembunyian mereka
kecuali Abdullah dan anak-anak Abu Bakr, Aishah dan Asma, serta orang
gaji mereka, Abdullah.

Rasulullah (SAW) dan Abu Bakr bersembunyi dalam sebuah gua di Gunung
Thaur. Selama tiga hari mereka berada dalam gua itu. Apabila kaum
Quraish menghampiri gua itu untuk mencari Rasulullah (SAW) tetapi mereka
tidak memasukinya. Mereka yakin Rasulullah (SAW) dan Abu Bakr (as) tidak
berada di dalam kerana mulut gua itu dilitupi oleh benang sarang
labah-labah dan sepasang burung merpati.
Allah SWT membantu dua insan ini, melindungi mereka daripada bahaya.
Kumpulan Quraish kemudian meninggalkan gua itu dan bersetuju untuk
pulang ke Makkah. Yakin musuh sudah beredar, Rasulullah (SAW) dan Abu
Bakr (as) meneruskan perjalanan dengan menaiki unta dibawa oleh orang
gaji mereka, Abdullah.

Ketiga-tiga mereka menggunakan laluan tidak diketahui ramai untuk ke
Madinah bagi mengelakkan kumpulan pemburu Quraish. Mereka meredah
gunung, bukit dan gurun di bawah perit matahari tetapi mereka tidak
pernah berputus asa. Mereka meletakkan segala kepercayaan kepada Allah
SWT. Sementara itu, kaum Quraish di Makkah semakin marah dengan
kehilangan Rasulullah (SAW). Mereka menawarkan hadih kepada sesiapa yang
dapat menangkap Rasulullah (SAW). Ramai yang mencuba nasib tetapi
semuanya gagal. Akhirnya dengan perlindungan Allah SWT, Rasulullah (SAW)
dan sahabatnya tiba perkampungan kaum Bani Sabin yang menyambut mereka
dengan gembira. Setelah sekian lama, Rasulullah (SAW) dan sahabatnya
akhir merasakan kehadiran harapan untuk masa depan. Ketika Rasulullah
(SAW) dan sahabatnya dalam perjalanan, penduduk Islam yang sudah
berpindah ke Madinah sebelum ini mendengar berita mengenai kedatangan
pemimpin mereka itu.

Malah penduduk Madinah yang baru memeluk Islam juga gembira dapat
bertemu Rasulullah (SAW). Jelaslah, sebelum tibanya Rasulullah di
Madinah, Islam semakin kukuh di tempat baru itu, sesuatu yang tidak
berlaku ketika berada di Makkah. Maka pada hari Isnin 8 Rabiulawal
bersamaan 20 September 622M, Rasulullah (SAW) akhirnya tiba di Quba,
sempadan Madinah dan benar-benar masuk ke Kota Madinah pada 12
Rabiulawal, hari Jumaat dan mendirikan solat Jumaat yang pertama di
Kampung Bani Amar. Kaum Muslimin semua keluar untuk menyambut baginda.
Bertitik tolak dari itu, Rasulullah (SAW) mula membina sebuah negara
Islam yang megah. Baginda memupukkan persaudaraan di kalangan umat
Muslim dan menyeru mereka supaya menegakkan yang hak dan mengikut segala
perintah Allah SWT.
Kesan daripada penghijrahan Rasulullah (SAW) dari Makkah ke Madinah
adalah satu catatan penting sehingga umat Islam menjadikan tahun
peristiwa bersejarah ini sebagai tahun permulaan kalendar Islam.

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PERISTIWA PENTING DALAM MUHARAM

1. 1 Muharam - Khalifah Umar Al-Khattab menetapkan adalah hari pertama
bagi setiap tahun baru Islam (Kalendar Hijriah).
2. 10 Muharam - Dinamakan juga hari 'Asyura'. Pada hari itu banyak
terjadi peristiwa penting yang mencerminkan kegemilangan bagi perjuangan
yang gigih dan tabah bagi menegakkan keadilah dan kebenaran.

Pada 10 Muharam juga telah berlaku:

1. Nabi Adam bertaubat kepada Allah.
2. Nabi Idris diangkat oleh Allah ke langit.
3. Nabi Nuh diselamatkan Allah keluar dari perahunya sesudah bumi
   ditenggelamkan selama enam bulan.
4. Nabi Ibrahim diselamatkan Allah dari pembakaran Raja Namrud.
5. Allah menurunkan kitab Taurat kepada Nabi Musa.
6. Nabi Yusuf dibebaskan dari penjara.
7. Penglihatan Nabi Yaakob yang kabur dipulihkkan Allah.
8. Nabi Ayub dipulihkan Allah dari penyakit kulit yang dideritainya.
9. Nabi Yunus selamat keluar dari perut ikan paus setelah berada di
   dalamnya selama 40 hari 40 malam.
10. Laut Merah terbelah dua untuk menyelamatkan Nabi Musa dan
    pengikutnya dari tentera Firaun.
11. Kesalahan Nabi Daud diampuni Allah.
12. Nabi Sulaiman dikurniakan Allah kerajaan yang besar.
13. Hari pertama Allah menciptakan alam.
14. Hari Pertama Allah menurunkan rahmat.
15. Hari pertama Allah menurunkan hujan.
16. Allah menjadikan 'Arasy.
17. Allah menjadikan Luh Mahfuz.
18. Allah menjadikan alam.
19. Allah menjadikan Malaikat Jibril.
20. Nabi Isa diangkat ke langit.

La.. la.. la.. la.. la.. la.. tonite

2011-11-24T11:08:00.001+08:00

"Remember when we said girl please dont go..

And how I'd be loving you forever.. "

Ok.. tajuk & lirik lagu teda kena mengena dengan topik.. hihihi.. Eksited sebenarnya ni.. I'm going to watch breaking dawn part 1 tonite with family and a bunch of their friend.. kalau tidak silap there'll 60 of us! weee.. so exited.. this year tidak dapat la tinguk dengan kawan - kawan during the 1st show sebab everybody pun busy.. Jelesnya dengan my cousins yang pegi tengok the 1st show d Twu! huh!! Tapi tidak apa.. Wait for me Edward darling.. ekekeke..

Will post pictures tomorrow (kalau rajin) k..

Till then.. take care peeps :)

muaxxx :-*

Date nite with my Edward :)

2011-11-23T16:20:00.001+08:00

Yes.. tomorrow nite can't came any sooner.. Ndak sabar ni.. 1 tahun menunggu.. hehehe..

Almost but not yet the end..

2011-11-15T10:11:00.001+08:00

Its nearer yet still so far.. 30 weeks along and I am HUGE! I kid you not.. Most people said that I don't look too big from behind but kalau tengok depan - depan, it looks as though I'm about to pop the baby out any time soon.. Can't imagine how big I'll be in 10 weeks time..

I can't wait to finally meet my little angel but at the same time I'm scared out of my mind! Been asking around about childbirth (actually I've been asking about it since we've ttc 5 years ago :P ) and read what I can find about it but still not knowing what to expect is kinda nerve wrecking. Getting different stories and experiences from different people is not much of a help too.. hahaha.. From what I can gather the pain is different for everyone (and every pregnancy!) Tidak semestinya kalau mo beranak air ketuban pecah, and not all will bleed before the actual labour.. Taking everything in, I try to besedia jak la untuk apa pun kemungkinan.. I guess you'll have to experience it by yourself baru la boleh tau kan? So, in this 30 weeks of pregnancy I've decided 2 things. First, I've decided to opt for natural delivery and praying hard it'll be possible. I'm just too much of a chicken to be put under a knife I guess.. hehe.. Tapi when the time comes and teda pilihan, tepaksa jugak apa boleh buat la kan.. Anything for the safety of my baby.. Alhamdulillah, so far baby is healthy and growing according to baby's appropriate size or slightly bigger (I think, will tell after check up tomorrow). I've got a feeling my baby is going to be a tall baby (ikut bapanya) and baby got the moves like Jagger I tell you.. Active betul berkickboxing dalam perut ni.. hehehe.. Tp ndak kisah la, bekuntau la baby dalam perut asalkan sihat dan sempurna semuanya.. Amin.. The second thing I've decided is to exclusively bf my baby.. I know this second one is quite challenging especially when I start working after maternity leave but I seriously hope that it'll be possible. My sister who just gave birth last August is determined on doing the same thing and so far, baby Khadijah is fully bf. Susah jugak dia cakap masa awal - awal tp they're getting the hang of things especially with the help of BIL's mother. A friend of mine Peejah who is also a working mother, yg bf her baby pun buat aku tambah semangat mo bf..

So I've been searching for possible baby names :) Loved a few but still undecided.. Something that starts with A or H.. Who knows looking for names for your unborn baby ni susah jugak.. Ada yang Hubbs suka but I dont and vice versa.. Sebelum ada baby bukan main banyak lagi list nama hahaha.. tp since lambat dapat rezeki all the names sudah kena amik oleh close families.. so back to the drawing board la jawapnya hahahaha.. hopefully we'll get something and agree on it soon :) Kalau ada suggestion pun amatlah dialu - alukan :D

On a totally different note, I just want to declare that I think <3 Henry Cavill <3 is oh so handsome and oh so sexy!! hahah.. Noticed him 1 first while watching the Tudors series.. Watched him again recently dalam the Immortals.. Aduihh.. cair I.. hahaha.. During the early months of my pregnancy I suddenly terjatuh cinta dengan Adam Lavine of Maroon 5.. For some reason baru aku perasan yg dia handsome kah kah kah.. ehh macam mana dari movie boleh pigi org handsome pulak ni? LOL.. ok back to movies, Breaking Dawn part 1 is coming soon!! Arghhhh.. Ndak sabar ni.. I'll be reunited with my beloved Edward soon.. Few more days left, ndak sabarrrrr.. :D

Wah.. hari ni panjang pulak my karangan.. Lama sdh ndak mengarang disebabkan malas hari ni at least hilang la sdh sawang - sawang di blog ni.. hihihihi.. Well, till then peeps.. Hope it'll not be until 2 more months la kan baru aku memblog balik :P Take care!! xoxo- @dr3h -

5 months

2011-08-22T10:08:00.000+08:00

well.. almost anyway..
Mudah - mudahan semuanya berjalan lancar dan dipermudahkan olehNya.. Amin...
Moving on to other topic.. Its almost RAYA!! can't wait to balik kampung and enjoy all those yummy food (hopefully my appetite will be super duper good by then so that I won't muntah again..)

till then peeps..
take care!

love,
from the heavier but happier @dr3h :)

Ramadhan..

2011-08-04T11:07:00.000+08:00

Ramadhan datang lagi..
A little different for me this time around :)
Good difference I would like to add..

Hope its not to late to wish all of you there
Selamat berpuasa dibulan yang mulia ini..
Mudah - mudahan semua ibadah kita diterima oleh-Nya, aminn..

~~arghhh.. gastrik la pulakkk.. :((~~

2011-07-20T07:56:00.000+08:00

After 4 years somehow I'm still waiting for that early morning birthday call from them.. Miss them so :`|

oh well.. happy birthday to me..

2011-07-19T11:05:00.000+08:00

Susahnya mo update blog ni.. huhu..
Berhari2 try ndak jgk dapat2..
Sudah dapat malas sdh mo update..
Middle of July sdh skrg..
Cepat btul masa berlalu..

Got a secret..

2011-05-22T10:25:00.000+08:00

I'm having a secret love affair..
I think know exactly when it happen..
Its not the same this time..
Its not like the other times..
Come what may
I promise I'll stay strong for us
I'll fight what ever battle I have to for us..

I feel like shouting to the world about what I feel..
but no.. not yet..
For now
I'm still keeping us a secret..

2011-04-28T11:19:00.000+08:00

~~running away might be a solution..~~
~~but where would i go?~~
~~need peace and quite.. somewhere~~
~~where no one i know will find me..~~
~~where i can find all the answers to the questions~~
~~i dont even know yet..~~
~~these mix feelings are not good feelings~~
~~i want to be alone and yet i dont want to..~~
~~i feel afraid to be alone~~
~~but there are times i feel that i am alone~~
~~and times when i feel that i can make it alone..~~
~~wish this unknown nagging feeling would go away..~~
~~wish i could feel like my old self again..~~

Lately..

2011-04-25T10:26:00.000+08:00

Lama sudah tidak menulis.. Hari ni suddenly terasa macam mau menulis..

Lately I feel strange.. Don't know why but sometimes I feel like I don't have a purpose in life.. Macam aku mencari sesuatu tapi aku sendiri pun not sure apa dia "sesuatu" itu? Sounds crazy? haha.. I thought so too.. These past few months, ada beberapa orang yang pigi umrah.. Ntah bila la turn aku dpt pigi umrah.. Rasa mauuuuuuuu btul pigi walaupun rasanya diri ni blum layak lg untuk menjejak kaki kesana.. Bila baca/ dengar pengalaman orang masa pi sana, macam - macam perasaan timbul.. Rasa terharu.. rasa mo menangis pun ada.. itu baru dengar cerita, blum lg sendiri pigi.. haih.. Mudah - mudahan la Allah panjangkan umur, murahkan rezeki supaya dapat jgk aku menjejak kaki kesana.. amin..

2011-02-14T07:07:00.001+08:00

If I could write a story
It would be the greatest ever told
Of a kind and loving father
Who had a heart of gold
If could write a million pages
...But still be unable to say, just how
Much I love and miss him
Every single day

If you're still with us today, we'll be celebrating your 57th birthday
Happy birthday dearest Dad..

May Allah bless your soul.. Amin ya rabbal alamin..

Al - Fatihah..

Berubah..

2011-02-13T10:40:00.000+08:00

We used to be so close.. Dalam 5 tahun tu, selalunya dimana ada aku, mesti dekat2 situ ada jugak dia.. Masa aku single teda bf aku selalu jd 3rd wheel kalau dorang dating :) Aku slalu jadi postman drg.. Kalau dorang begaduh aku jugak slalu jd org tengah.. Tahun pertama lepas tahun ke 5 tu, walaupun semua orang bawa haluan masing - masing kami masih lagi rapat walaupun mungkin tidak la serapat dulu.. Then suddenly, out of the blue, dia macam hilang dari radar kawan - kawan.. Puas jugak la cari.. Tanya kawan - kawan yang lain pun macam tiada yang tau kemana dia hilang.. Last kami jumpa maybe adalah jugak 14 - 15 tahun yang lalu.. Lamakan?
Tapi rasa sedih pulak bila tau yg dia sebenarnya tau mcmana mo contact kami yang lama mencari dia tu.. Cuma dia choose tidak mo contact kami.. I'm not sure what her reasons are but I feel a little bit hurt.. Well.. people change.. Mo buat macamana kan.. Orang tidak sudi tidak apa la.. Whatever her reasons are.. I just hope she's happy..

Stuck

2011-01-06T16:38:00.000+08:00

Deadline is getting nearer and I'm stuck!
Lama sudah tidak guna skill - skill multimedia yang ada so.. this is what you get la..
Haha.. I'm one of the first that started this.. Siap bagitau member2 section lain lagi
tinguk2 aku pulak yang ndak pandai siap - siap.. Hahaha..
Ketawa - ketawa ni.. Lama - lama nangis ni.. Huhuhu..

Hillier..

2011-01-03T20:23:00.000+08:00

See the bag above?

This one?

How about this?

Looks the same? I know..They are! Tapi saya tidak peduli..

Saya mahu ini beg!! I'd prefer to have all 3 of them

tapi dapat 1 pun tidak apa la..

So.. ada sesiapa yg baik hati ka mo kasi beli? :D

2011

2011-01-03T16:40:00.000+08:00

Its been a very long while.. hehe.. (ada ka jgk ayat bgitu? :P)
Actually banyak mo cerita tapi bila ada mood mo blogging, teda idea mo mengarang..
bila ada idea mo mengarang, internet pulak buat hal.. so in the end, blog ni pun
penuh dengan sawang - sawang saja la kan.. hehehe..
So anyways, just popping by to wish you guys a very happy new year..
its 2011 ya'll.. :D Macam cepat btul 2010 berlalu..
Semoga tahun baru 2011 ini memberikan yang terbaik untuk kita semua..
Lebih baik daripada 2010.. Aminn..

2010-09-10T00:00:00.001+08:00

Saidina Affan menyusun kata
Tutur peri yang aulia
Maaf-bermaafan sesama kita
Di Aidilfitri yang mulia

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin

Mood

2010-09-08T10:04:00.001+08:00

Hari ni teda mood mo kerja..
Mo cakap mood raya ndak jugak..
Yang penting teda mood sudah mo kerja..
Mood yang ada ialah MOOD MALAS

p/s : Hari ni tinguk anak bulan.. Macam mana kalau bisuk raya? :D

Weird Dream

2010-08-30T08:15:00.000+08:00

So I have this weird dream on Saturday (tapi time mimpi tu tidak la rasa pelik.. sudah sedar baru la rasa macam pelik haha).. I dont know exactly how it started but what i distinctively remembered was, I was in a Kelisa that belong to my colleague A, along with cousin J who was driving it and we were going to send cousin S's daughter, Chubby and her evil stepmother somewhere.. So along the way, I was playing with Chubby when suddenly we have a "diaper situation". Before I got around to check her diaper, one of the sticker of her diaper got loose and so terbuka la separuh that diaper. The diaper was already full with her poo and while I was trying to catch her to contain the situation it got worst.. Chubby pee peed all over the car. It was so chaotic I tell you.. Cousin J was shouting for me to grab hold of Chubby cause Chubby who is still peeing was climbing to the driver's seat from the back.. The evil stepmother was whinning endlessly and I was trying to get to Chubby.. You would think that it would be easy to get hold of Chubby in the limited space of the Kelisa but no.. It was as if the Kelisa was endlessly long.. Rasa macam stretch limo pulak that Kelisa hahaha.. When I finally got hold of Chubby, she was laughing despite being covered in her own poo and tempat kaki tempat duduk blakang driver pas full of her pee.. hahahaa.. tenggelam ba kaki..Then suddenly I heard a voice.."Yang.. Ayang.. Yang.." It was Hubbs voice but I couldn't see him anywhere.. Lama - lama suara tu tambah kuat and I woke up.. Rupanya that was Hubbs waking me up for sahur..

Pelikan mimpi tu.. hahaha.. The weirdest part was, mcmana pulak evil stepmother tu boleh - bolehnya temasuk dalam mimpi aku.. heii.. Sungguh membuang space ok? hahaha.. So, I told Hubbs about that weird dream and he was particularly interested in the poo part.

"Sayang nampak ka the poo?"

"Nampak la bah.. Kan Ayang bilang tebuka dia punya pampers sebelah"

"Mama Abang bilang, kalau mimpi nampak poo, mo dapat rezeki tu.."

"Huh?! Ada ka.. btul ka jgk? Apa la kunun tu?"

"Bah kita tunggu la pagi aa.."

So that morning, nothing happened.. So I said to jokingly to Hubbs.. "Nah teda pun orang kasi duit :P".. Then Aunty W called and asked us berbuka sama - sama at LI. Blum sempat bagitau Hubbs, my sister called and told me that our house in Twu kena banjir.. When I told Hubbs about both he said "Itu la rezeki ko hari ni Yang.. Aunty W belanja makan, the pee pee si Chubby yang penuh tu, maybe itu la petanda ruma di Twu kena banjir tu.. hehe" So I said.. ya maybe thats it.. Until night time comes and my sister called again telling me a little bit of a good news :) Lets just say kena belanja makan is not the only rezeki I got that day.. Syukur alhamdulillah.. hehehe.. Maybe there is a little truth in all of that mumbo jumbo about the meanings of dreams.. Apa - apa pun semua rezeki dari-Nya.. Syukur alhamdulillah, Dia masih ingatkan hambaNya ini.. :D

I Am Woman

2010-08-26T08:34:00.000+08:00

I am woman, hear me roar
In numbers too big to ignore
And I know too much to go back an' pretend
'Cause I've heard it all before
And I've been down there on the floor
No one's ever gonna keep me down again

Oh yes, I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can do anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman

You can bend but never break me
'Cause it only serves to make me
More determined to achieve my final goal
And I come back even stronger
Not a novice any longer
'Cause you've deepened the conviction in my soul

Oh, yes, I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can face anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman

I am woman watch me grow
See me standing toe to toe
As I spread my lovin' arms across the land
But I'm still an embryo
With a long, long way to go
Until I make my brother understand

Oh, yes, I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can face anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman

Oh, I am woman
I am invincible
I am strong

I am woman
I am invincible
I am strong
I am woman

Hari ni sesi lirik lagu lagi.. :D Suddenly I remembered this song from SATC2.. Never heard it before watching the movie so when I suddenly remember the song, trus google for the lyrics :D I think this is a very good song.. So to all the women out there.. This is for you..

" If I have to
I can face anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am WOMAN "

Bila Cinta

2010-08-25T09:56:00.001+08:00

Bila cinta kini
Tak lagi bermakna
Yang ku rasa kini
Hanyalah nestapa

Di tinggalkan cinta masa lalu

Dulu kau tawarkan
Manisnya janjimu
Dan ku sambut itu
Dengan segenap hatiku
Bila engkau pergi
Tinggalkan ku

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku memilih
Cinta yang fana

Perginya dirimu
Merobek jantungku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan
Dalam harapan

Pernah dengar this song? Best tau.. It is currently one of my fav song.. Jiwang? I know.. hehe.. but I like it! The first time I heard this song was when I went to watch the movie "Lagenda Budak Setan". Yes.. my dear friends.. You've caught me going to the cinema watching malay movie.. Sokong la filem tempatan.. Kah Kah Kah.. :P Actually, masa keluar iklan - iklan LBS ni, I've already decided to watch it.. Plan mo tinguk sama Hubbs tapi biasa la.. Cadangan ditolak.. hahaha.. And so, one fine day, I decided to curi - curi watch it alone. Dengan menggunakan alasan mo pigi cuci Ms.Waja, saya pun pergi la ke CP and watch it alone.. Tp malangnya movie LBS ni agak panjang (more than 90 mins) Hubbs keep on calling me asking where I am.. So disebabkan ndak mo kena marah sbb bohong sunat I pon kluar dr wayang tu sebelum habis cerita.. huhuhu.. Sodehh.. Terpaksa la tunggu raya.. mntau kuar di @str0 :D

After I've watched the movie (albeit only partial of it), I've since been searching for the book! Penulis LBS ni was one of my fav malay author during my early teen years.. I'm not really sure why I didn't bought the book back then, tapi sekarang ni memang la mo mencari sdh.. Anybody knows where i can get the ebook (free la ofcoz kan :P )?

15 of Ramadhan

2010-08-25T07:27:00.000+08:00

Wow.. Cepatnya masa berlalu.. Its already the 15th day of Ramadhan.. 15 more days until we celebrate hari kemenangan seluruh ummat Islam.. Semoga semua puasa dan amalan kita diterima dan diberkati-Nya.. Amin..

Yesterday..

2010-08-24T08:57:00.002+08:00

hahaha.. Don't you think that picture is funny? Budak ni memang ada - ada jak ni.. Yesterday, FIL bawak all of us for iftar at Promenade Hotel sekali celebrate MIL & SIL4's birthday.. All of us were suppose to meet there around 6 tp only SIL2 and her kids datang (plus us, PIL & SIL4 of coz).. BIL, SIL1 & SIL3 ada hal yang tidak dapat dielakkan.. Hubbs and I pun almost didn't make it. Remember my aching head yesterday? Well, by the time I got home it got worst.. Sakit gila sampai rasa nauseated. Dalam kereta pun aduih.. the pain was excruciating I almost puke.. Tapi tahan - tahan jak sebab ndak mo batal puasa.. Sampai jak di hotel.. I ran straight to the restroom gagging.. 2 minit lagi mo sungkai.. tapi nasib baik jgk la ndak termuntah..

When I got to the table semua orang tengah makan.. The food was good tapi dengan keadaan perut yang ndak ok and rasa mo muntah, all I can stomach is NENAS.. punya banyak aku makan tu nenas mo kasi hilang rasa mo muntah.. hahahaha.. Lama - lama baru hilang tu rasa mual.. tapi sedih ni ndak dapat makan yang lain - lain sebab selera susah tiada.. I end up makan sup sama bubur jak.. hmm.. Rugi ni..

So anyways, back to the picture, haha.. Sudah la orang teda mood kan.. tiba - tiba jak si Boboy ni cakap..

"Aunty.. aunty.. mau tinguk macam mana muka om marah?"

"Macam mana?"

"Macam bgini"

hahahahaha.. semua pun pecah ketawa ni.. Kids.. They said the darnest thing :D Hilang sekejap tu sakit kepala.. :D

So..

2010-08-23T14:09:00.000+08:00

Hari ni terasa cepat pulak masa berlalu.. Sedar - sedar jam 1 lebih sudah.. Sebenarnya teda apa - apa mo blog pun.. Tapi rasa macam mata mo juling sudah menaip minit mesyuarat.. Kepala pun rasa berdenyut - denyut.. So, I decided to write something here :) Tapi teda pulak specific thing mo cerita.. Hahahaha..

Aduih... sakit la pulak kepala ni.. mata pun macam berpinar - pinar jak.. Lepas masak and sedia makanan untuk Hubbs sahur tadi trus baring dengan niat mo tidur balik.. Tapi sebelum tu, memandangkan aku ni jenis yang ndak makan sahur sangat.. Aku pun minum air sampai kembung perut.. hehehe.. 6.10 pagi SIL4 ketuk pintu bilik.. cakap mo minta hantar p skolah.. SIL4 ni memang kadang - kadang ikut aku kalau mo p skolah sebab sekolahnya dekat jak dengan opis aku.. tp beratnya kepala time bangun tu.. Rasa - rasa memang macam ndak mo pi kerja.. Hubbs pun offer sdh mo hantar SIL4 p skolah kalau aku btul2 ndak jd p opis.. Tapi lepas fikir - fikir, rasa rugi pulak cuti.. lagi pun rasa larat lagi time tu dan sekarang aku rasa sedikit menyesal sebab tidak cuti.. huhuhu.. Denyutan dikepala ni macam menjadi - jadi la pulak.. aduihh..

Today is the 13th day of Ramadhan and so far this time around punya puasa, nafsu makan time berbuka macam masih under control.. Hehehe.. Sebelum sungkai tu memang la ya Allah.. Kalah - kalah perut buaya semua dikepingin.. Nasib baik time sampai bazar, dapat mengawal diri and beli only 1 jenis makanan berat jak.. Kuih pun not so much this year.. The only kuih yang wajib dibeli hari - hari is popia.. Hari - hari mesti RM3 dan yang paling penting mesti habis di makan :D So far, I've had Meehoon goreng kosong almost everyday.. Ntah la kenapa tapi selera makan meehoon jak pulak kebanyakan this year.. hehehe.. Pdhal meehoonnya tu kosong jak letak lada.. Sekali sungkai dengan laksa.. dua kali sungkai roti john and sekali burger besar.. Semua beli di Bazar Asia City.. Asam laksa yang beli di bazar tu sedap la jgk.. tapi ndak tau kenapa everytime p sana meehoon jgk aku beli hahaha.. kena baca kali sdh ni oleh penjual meehoon :P Hari ni ndak tau la mo berbuka apa.. selera blum sampai.. tadi nampak kek batik si Rina post d FBnya.. aduihh.. beliur jgk aku tinguk.. mo beli tapi takut ndak sedap.. mo buat sendiri blum rajin.. hahaha..

Bah ok la.. lain - lain sdh ni aku merepek.. ahahahaha... :P mo kasi lupa sakit kepala ba ni.. Bah k lah.. sambung buat kerja dulu.. take care peeps.. XOXO

The Last Song

2010-08-23T08:05:00.006+08:00

A father is someone that
holds your hand at the fair
makes sure you do what your mother says
holds back your hair when you are sick
brushes that hair when it is tangled because mother is too busy
lets you eat ice cream for breakfast
but only when mother is away
he walks you down the aisle
and tells you everythings gonna be ok
– Anonymous

My Dad is the kind of father that always wants to know whats going on in his kids life.. Always calling and asking where I am, what I am up to and whats going on etc.. Time remaja - remaja, there were times when I do feel suffocated by his actions and rebel.. biasa la kan.. Orang bilang remaja.. :-) tapi after I passed that stage, because of the way he was, I do feel like I can talk freely to him.. It was always easier to talk to Dad about "things". He was always understanding and always knows what to say to make me feel better..

Have you guys heard about Nicholas Sparks's book The Last Song? Anyone seen the movie yet? Well, I have watched the movie and just finished the book.. I cried my eyes out watching the movie and cried some more while reading the book.

Banyak perbezaan antara buku dan movienya but the story is still the same.. Dua - dua pun bagus.. Its about the relationship between a father and child. I don't know if its because I can relate to the story line that I cried so much, but it really makes me feel the extend of sacrifice and how deep a father's love is to his children..

Best buku ni.. so to those book lovers out there, if you haven't read it yet, pigi la cari and baca.. If you're not a book person, maybe you could check out the movie.. Watch/read it and judge it yourself :)

p/s : I miss you so much pa.. Al-Fatihah..

Geram..

2010-08-20T18:04:00.000+08:00

Eii.. Time geramnya dgn blogspot ni.. Time ada mood & idea mencurah - curah memblog ni la time dia betebiat. huhu.. This is the 3 post I'm composing.. I've lost the other 2.. for some reason, both of the previous post cannot be saved and cant be publish! As soon as I hit the publish button everything disappear and I have to start all over again.. *haih* geramnyaaaa.... Skrang teda mood sdh mo mengarang balik yg sudah hilang tu.. Tinguk la bisuk macam mana.. hmm..

Layout

2010-08-19T12:01:00.000+08:00

I has been a long while yes? Lama btul tidak blogging and so today, I've just noticed some changes on blogspot.. Have you guys seen the new layout on blogspot? I don't know about you guys but I think its awesome (and about time too) especially for someone like me yang malas mo create own layout background design hehehe.. Bah I want to check it out make some changes to this space.. Till then peeps.. muaxxx

Happy Birthday to @dr3h :)

2010-07-20T08:12:00.010+08:00

Surprise birthday lunch by lovely friends.. Love it..

One of the best birthdays ever..

Thank you so very much you guys.. :)

Operator oh operator

2010-01-19T10:55:00.001+08:00

At my office, only a few people yang dapat direct line yang boleh call out.. Usually orang baru mcm I ni memang la will not get that particular line sebab semua sdh kena amik oleh the seniors.. So, in order to make official calls (kalau non official tu pakai hp la kan :D ), I have to call our one and only operator, she'll make the call and pass the call to me.. Tapi operator kami ni ada lain siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikitttt.. Selalu jak cakap dia sibuk.. Ntah apa yang disibukkannya.. pdhal selalu kalau aku lalu nampak macam browse resipi sama baca news jak kerjanya..

Scene 1

Me : Kak, tolong call number ni.. 233xxx
Operator : Ok.. Brapa numbernya?
Me : 233xxx
Operator : Eh.. kejap aku cari pen dulu..
(after few seconds)
Operator : ok.. brapa numbernya tu?
Me : 233xxx
Operator : 322..
Me : Bukan 322.. kak.. 233xxx
Operator : Oo.. ok..

Scene 2
Me : Kak.. tolong callkan number ni..
Operator : OK..brapa numbernya?
Me : 423xxx
Operator : Ok..
(letak fon.. and wait for the call to be connected..)
(15 minutes later..)
Me : Kak.. mana sudah call yang aku minta tadi?
Operator : alamak.. lupa! Sorry.. sibuk aku..

Scene 3
Me calling and calling and calling the kakak operator on Friday 11.00am and there is no one answering.. *sigh*

Sotkan operator tempat kami ni?

Seriously..

2010-01-08T20:17:00.001+08:00

What are they thinking?
What happened to respecting others and their belief?
What happened to all those talk about 1M?
What happened to hidup aman makmur dalam masyarakat berbilang bangsa dan agama?
Whatever your opinion about the matter
Burning those churches wont do anything but make things worst..
I seriously think that its a very very stupid and irresponsible thing to do.
There are so many other things they can do to prove a point..
Bukankah kita ni sepatutnya benci kekerasan?
Those brainless shitheads should just be thrown to jail!

Tekanan..

2010-01-04T08:03:00.000+08:00

*sigh*
Its only the 4th day of the new year and things are already like this..
Not a good start of the new year..
Rasa macam sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga pulak..
When will things turn around for us?
I feel like killing myself..

Move..

2010-01-02T19:30:00.000+08:00

I've presented and lost my case..

I though my points were extremely good..
but I guess Hubbs was better and in the end
its for our own good (even though I'm actually very reluctant to say this out loud)

Seriously I hate to leave.. I love it here..
The only motivation is the amount of $$$$$ we'll be able to save..
So, looks like we're moving out from here and going back to IL's..

I'm nervous!
I'm not a good DIL material..
I don't like sharing,
I'm the queen of procrastination on some things,
I like doing things my way and on my own time (some of you might categorize this as lazy, I call it set in some ways :P )
I'm private and like to keep to myself..
I like waking up late on my off days..*sigh*
I hope this "qualities" of mine won't bring any problem there..

And now I have to resume packing..
Arghhhhhhhhhhh....... I HATE PACKING!!!

Welcome 2010

2010-01-01T00:00:00.001+08:00

As the new year unfolds, may it bring us all joy, beautiful moments and surprises that we all could cherished forever. Hopefully, this year will be the year that we get all our wishes and prosper with good health and wealth!

So, good bye 2009 and hello 2010!!

Happy New Year everyone!!

Hello :)

2009-12-31T20:13:00.266+08:00

Hello there everyone :)

Its almost the end of 2009.. A few more hours and it'll officially be 2010. So how was 2009 for you? Mine was full of.. well, lets just say 2009 is not one of my favorite..

Lets recap the year shall we? This year I've been back stabbed by people I called friends and people who are supposedly called "family" (and I'm using this term loosely..), been in quite a few very difficult situations, seen people cheat, lost respect to a couple of people and a few more I'd rather not write here. Owh.. one more thing, we're still babyless. Hmmm... Walaupun begitu, even though I would have classified this year as a "half empty year" 2009 still have those ups moments for me.. My sister got married this year, I have passed all the requirements that qualifies me as a permanent staff of the Jabatan and we've welcomed 3 more nieces and 1 nephew to the family.. So I guess that's not so bad right?

All in all, I'm very thankful for all my family, especially for my siblings.. My sister & brother who is always there for me. I know I could be a very difficult person to be sister with and I'm not the best sister anyone could have but hey, guess what? You're both stuck with me for as long as I live :P hehehe I'm kidding.. Well, I'll try not to bring you guys down so much la ya.. Thanks so much for everything. As for the rest of my family members (Hubbs, nenek, aunties, uncles & cousins) and my friends, thank you for everything that you've done for me, for us.. I love all of you..

So what is the point of celebrating a new year if not hoping for a new beginning, for a new or renew your resolution right? Tapi sebelum buat azam baru, maybe I should check this year's resolution first.. At the beginning of this year I believe I have listed a few resolution so lets see if I've actually accomplished anything.. :) If I remembered correctly, my first 3 resolution is to I. Be a better Muslim, II. Be a better Wife and III. Be a better Person. I think it is safe to say that I'm still improving on these 3 areas. The forth resolution for 2009 is to Be Healthier. Sebenarnya I'm not really sure how I'm doing in this area cause I was still unable to do that much exercise over the year (me and my excuses are seriously never ending when it comes to exercise) hehehe.. but I would like to think that I have done something in terms of my eating habits..As for the fifth one, V. Cut down Sodas / Carbonated Drinks I'm proud to say I've managed to cut down my soda intake.. woohoooo!! :D Its not easy, but I managed :) Hopefully I can keep on reducing my soda intake.. Number six (a very very sore spot for me) VI. Baby. Well, looks like this year is still not our year to be parents.. People get pregnant all the time, popped baby all the time and yet I'm still not! Last but not least, VII. Savings, again, this one is also still a work in progress.

Now that we have get that out of the way, here are my new resolution for 2010.

I. Be a better Muslim

II. Be a better wife

III. Be a better person

IV. Be healthier

V. Baby

VI. Savings

VII. Start looking for oppurtunity

As you can see, the first 6 of my resolution for 2010 is just the same as the one in 2009. The reason I'm keeping these resolution is because I think it is a continous thing and there are always ways to be better. I have my doubts about keeping number 5 though cause I'm not sure wheater I should keep hoping /trying (even though I always always ends up getting dissappointed) or take it as a sign that we're still not blessed with a baby because we're not meant to be parents. Owh well.. Lets just hope our luck will change this year (please pray for us, thanks). As for resolution number 7, I'm planning to do something other than what I'm doing right now.. In this stage I'm still not sure but hopefully I'll find it soon..

Well, I guess thats it.. this is my last post for 2009 and before I sign off, I would like to post the pictures of lelaki - lelaki yang berjaya mencairkan saya pada tahun ini.. hahahaha (sempat ba lg :P)

1. Edward Cullen - I think this goes without saying.. and there's no explaination needed hahaha.. and because the Edward in my head could not be transferred here, I'll give you the person playing EC, RobPattz :D

2. Ian Somerhalder - also known as Damon Salvatore.. how could you resist those eyes?

3. Jeffrey Dean Morgan - Don't know why but he's always on my list.. hahaha.. I find him very sexy :D

4. Matt Lanter - Again, its the eyes that captivate me!

5. Channing Tatum - This guy can seriously move!

6. Steven Strait - Gorgeous! And for the record, if Taylor Lautner is not playing JB, I think Steven is the next best thing that can play JB :D By the way, don't you guys think they look a little bit alike?

Owh! I just realize almost all of them hall have GREEN EYES!! :D hehehe I now officially declared that I have a thing for cute sexy guys with green eyes :P So, who melted your heart this year?

See you guys next year! Later peeps! XOXO

Mat Lanter

2009-12-27T01:44:00.000+08:00

One word.. YUMMY :P

2 years ago, today..

2009-12-16T09:15:00.000+08:00

Still hard to talk about it..

Still feel like something is missing..
Wish that you're still with us coz
I still miss you everyday..

Our prayers will always be with you..
Al - Fatihah..

Senjakala & Cinta Baru

2009-12-15T19:37:00.000+08:00

Went to a bookstore during lunch hour just now and was surprised with this at the display window!

Twilight = Senjakala? and New Moon = Cinta Baru? hahahaha.. Seriously? I wanted to rip the plastic cover open just to take a peek at what's inside (note : look at "SENJAKALA") tapi one of the workers kept on eyeing me so my niat terbantut.. heheheh.. I seriously want to read what's inside and look at how they translate each and every word.. I only got to read the sinopsys at the back of the cover and that alone feels wierd! :P Can't imagine how they'll translate the kissing scene, the lion & lamb scene and so on.. More so, I'm curious to know whether they'll translate the other two books? How will they translate the wedding nite scene from breaking dawn? What will the title be? I guess Eclipse = Gerhana hehehe.. and will Breaking Dawn = Sesudah subuh or Dikeheningan Subuh or some other cheesy words? hehehehe.. This weekend i will find some time to look for these books to read whats inside.. heheheh.. Will let you guys know if my mission is accomplished later :D

p/s: sorry because of the super long hiatus :P been busy with facebook lately (i'm sure most of you are too :P ) will update again (i hope in the near future..) till then peeps.. toodles! :D

@dr3h

2009-12-15T11:22:00.000+08:00

is positive yet uncertain..
hopefully the certainty will come soon..
mums is still the word..
so..

thinking..

2009-12-12T18:56:00.000+08:00

and is still thinking..